Today's the day!

I used to be a writer and I used to be a dreamer - am I still?

Today at 6:50 CST my son and I will board a plane and leave the US. I am stunned.

My father had his gallbladder removed last night in an emergency operation. He is coming home this morning and we will have the visit that we were planning to start yesterday morning but couldn't because he wasn't feeling well. I'm glad that my last vision of him will not be from a hospital bed.

Oh, I accidentally packed one too many bags! I had to reconfigure our carryons because aer lingus has a 13 pound per carryon limit and somehow in the reshuffling I ended up packing too many checked bags. Fortunately, none of the bags were packed too tightly and i was able to fit everything into the 4 bag limit but I'd still like to keep the small duffel bag for other uses.

Head is hurting and feeling foggy. I have got to get my medications adjusted after i settle in to Nice. I think that both the thyroid and the antidepressant meds should be reviewed. My body is vibrating; not quite shaking but the energy beneath the surface is palpable. Nothing to be nervous about; just a major life change! :-) I know that it will be worth it! :-)

ok, i admit it, i'm excited

it's been so long since i've seen my husband - 3 months! I'm even tossing around the idea of having another child - even though one is overwhelming me already.

There are going to be so many new experiences - i'll be on sensory overload!
I'm very glad that I have a brother who has been through this before - moving overseas and not being fluent.

Remember that story "The grasshopper and the ant"? yeah, i'm the grasshopper when it comes to being prepared for speaking french.

Looking forward to...

• Being with my husband in 14 days
• Having a widow's walk to put plants on.
• Being near the sea
• Walking near the sea
• Living steps away from a market
• Having a home, sweet, home

feeling nothing

i've just sort of accepted this move - this major life change. i don't feel anything. I miss my husband, but its more of an in my head thing than in my heart. i know i will miss my family and friends (already missing them) but I chose to do this so what else can i do? I can't sit and cry about it i must move forward so there's nothing wrong with not feeling anything - right?