I've been seeing a counsellor over here and you can imagine that it's a bit of a challenge to talk to a psychologist in another language - but i think it taps into the emotions just as deep - maybe deeper. She asked me to recall a moment when i was truly happy and I just started crying because my response in my head was so complicated - so many qualifications, such as, "i was happy at this point, BUT..." "Looking back, it was a happy time, but at the moment i didn't appreciate it"...I'm aways striving for something else and I keep forgetting things.
I've been journalling again - on paper. Maybe i'm just a pen and ink kinda gal. Who knows, maybe I'll reinvent my web presence sometime soon because I am feeling better.
